1.4.10

Page four. It's amazing to me the myriad of emotions I've felt and been through in just four days. From depressed and lonely to breezing through the day relatively emotionless to being happy and enjoying every second of the day, life has got me utterly confused. I feel like I've been four different versions of myself and I'm still trying to figure out the best combination for myself. Today's variety, though, was awesome!

I woke up with my piece of junk iPhone - I love the iPhone, just not mine - vibrating on my nightstand - because my speaker blew out and no longer makes sound - thinking it was just my alarm, until I realized I was supposed to be playing golf! I picked up the phone, tried clearing my throat and did my best 'I'm just running late and totally did NOT just wake up because of this phone call' impression and said I was on my way out of the door as we speak. I hung up, brushed my teeth, got dressed, freaked out a little bit, and drove like a mad man to the golf course getting there with plenty of time. I then quickly calmed down so as not to let the chaotic morning affect my golf game (slash chance to win some of my money back from the prior week). I was feeling confident in my game and teed off with a nice shot down the fairway. Ahhh sweet relief for any golfer on the first tee.

I kept my cool for pretty much the entire round, and was playing some of the best golf I've ever played. I was saving pars from trees and sand traps and making those elusive four and five foot par putt saves. I even had five birdie attempts in the last six holes. While I made none of them - two lip-outs, one too hard, one too short and one three-putt - I still ended up shooting a 79, tying my best round there and my third best round ever! While I only earned $7 from my opponent - that scrappy bastard - I cashed in on him trying to impress his girlfriend as he picked up the tab for an awesome BBQ lunch at Lucilles.

Sitting at home, fat and happy, I relaxed and did some chores, perfectly content with being alone with nothing to do. Later in the afternoon my roommate, Jim, invited me to dinner with him, his girlfriend, Salli, her roommate, Johanna, Jim's friend Ryan. Recently, I've passed on these invitations for reasons I do not know, and I usually end up missing out on tons of fun. This time I agreed and it turned out to be great!

The five of us munched on fine Kraft cheese, freshly sliced with crackers, washing it down with a freshly bottled Mug Root Beer, as we waited for the ladies to finish cooking us their vegetarian taco pie. It was delish! We sat around making jokes and enjoying each others company. I felt like we were all part of some Indie movie. Strange, the thoughts that go on in my head.

After playing with a ceiling fan, some string and decorative aluminum holiday balls - don't ask - we decided to go bowling. For those of you that don't know me, I love bowling. What a PERFECT DAY! Golfing, winning money, free lunch, free dinner, great company, and ending it with BOWLING??? All that was missing was hookers and blow! Yes, that last part was a joke. Hopefully you'll get to know me and my sense of humor, if you don't already. Whoever "you"are.

After climbing into bed, I got my phone out and opened up a game, as I usually do to help me fall asleep. A distraction from my over-thinking mind. It turns out I didn't need it tonight. I was happy, tired, and ready to rest to see what day five would bring me. Until tomorrow, there's day 4 of 365.