I feel terrible. Mentally. I have felt anxiety for about a month now, and I don't know why. I feel like I'm better off financially, mentally, physically, yet I still feel short of breath and my heart is racing all day. I don't like it. I feel depressed almost, as I am unmotivated and nervous all the time. I can't put my finger on it either. I'm thinking about finding a psychologist. I want someone to talk to about me, who can give me some OUTSIDE interpretation about MY actual feelings, without knowing history and whatnot. I almost feel like I just need to (as gay as this sounds) sit in my room and weep for an hour or something.
So, just so you all know, this is the reason I haven't posted in like a week. That and Thursday and Saturday were long days with the Alan Jackson concert and UFC fight. Oh and last night was a long night with a plumber that cost me $360.
So that's all for now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. OH! And I'm also not looking for some sort of "aww kyle im sorry...etc." I just put this post as part of my goal of expressing my feelings when I have them.
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It could very well be depression. Even if things are good it can happen to the best of us. I know it is completely different but I had baby blues after Tyler was born and it stunk. Things were great but I didn't want to leave the house and I just felt like you were describing. I know it is way different as mine was post partum hormone imbalabces but still. My point is it is nothing to be ashamed of! :)
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