The little voice in my head

A while ago I took this Landmark Education class, and without going into detail about it I learned a lot of things. A lot of things that I have since lost sight of. One of which, is the little voice in your head that talks to you; usually when you should probably be listening to someone else. We all have it. Yours is probably saying, "Heh! What little voice? I don't have a little voice." Anyway, tonight I saw some ooooooold friends that I haven't seen in years. While there, the little voice in my head kept telling me that I should lie and say I'm already successful and things couldn't be better. This scared me because I've conditioned my own damn head to actually believe I am what I want to be, even though I'm not yet.

I tried to figure out why I felt the need to bring this fantasy out to play, and the only reason I could come up with was that I have this expectation that everyone else has an expectation of who I "should" be by now. What an idiot! Who even cares if they do? Besides me apparently, which I shouldn't! haha!

NOTE TO SELF #1: I need to realize that this life where I already make a 6-figure income, drive a nice car, own my own home(s) and don't have to say, "No, I can't afford it" only lives in my head. I don't work hard enough to have accomplished all of this by 25! I've got plenty of time. Yes, people have done it and are doing it, but I'm not a failure because I haven't. I've accomplished a lot so far, but have a lot to accomplish yet. Tell the voice to STFU! Be present!

Goal #2: (work related, and I don't want to mix this with work yet, so I'm posting so I know) Too by Jewel Eye

Oh, & I made it through 6/13 without spending a dime! sweet!