Laws of attraction!

Yeah, yeah. I know I've been UBER slacking on keeping my blog updated. Whatever!

So in my last post, I talked about the secret. Since then, I have created a vision board see below, I have begun following some great mentors/life coaches/fellow LOA believers (Laws of Attraction) etc. and have been feeling GREAT about my life. I used to think that the "laws of attraction" were simply a term used in love and lust. Boy was I wrong! I'll explain more later. That's my vision board so far. There are some quotes, "It's time to start living the life you've imagined." Some pictures of things I want (beautiful house, bar, boat, awesome kitchen). Some things that just make me happy (golf) and I've still got some more things I need to put on there. I've been doing a lot better thinking about my business too!

I won't get into all the details of "The Secret" and LOA, but a lot of it is simply this; whatever you put out, will generate the same thing back. So if I'm putting off an "I'm sick of bills and ants and my pesky boss" vibe, I'm going to get more bills, more ants and more peskiness from my boss! Conversely, if I'm putting out to the universe that I'm successful, capable, healthy, and worth something amazing, I'm going to be successful at whatever I take on, capable of doing them, stay healthy and earn what I feel and believe I'm worth.

I'm still questioning the "silliness" of this whole theory, even though I shouldn't, but it's a common struggle with my own internal dialogue; that pesky voice in your head that I've mentioned a few times. It's also funny to me because I keep asking myself why wouldn't everyone just think this way anyways, until I listen to conversations and realize almost everyone I know talks about bad things and thinks the worst.

Examples: How many people come home from work and talk about all the annoying things that have happened at work and how annoying the boss is, nearly every day?

How many people do you know that are "one of those people" and have a different sob story each day of how something ELSE has happened to them and it's "poor me" and "why me?"

How many people do you know that have an excuse for why everything happens to them, and it's never really "their fault."

How many of these people are "successful" and happy people? none that I've met. Now on the other end:

How many people that aren't "successful" come home and talk about the positive things that happened?

How many people that aren't "successful" bring up how well their business is doing or how they are just happy to have a job in this time?

"BUT KYLE, those people are happy because they have money."

A partial truth, maybe, but there are plenty of people who have money and they're not happy!

I think with positive thought and the belief that you're worth something more and capable of something more, certain things will "just show up" or gravitate towards you.

"BUT KYLE, why not just sit here all day thinking that you can and will win the lotto?" I'm not too sure how well this works, but I'm pretty sure it may not be stronger than odds of 1 in 135,145,920 haha. That, and the lotto doesn't always make people happy, healthy and wealthy. The LOA works in all areas. It's having an abundance of health, love, money, etc. I can have a million dollars and be sick and die and that's no fun. I can have a million dollars and be sad and lonely and that's no fun. It's about all aspects of life!

Today, was a pretty interesting day. I feel I saw this power of positive thinking work! My personal example, so far:

I've been believing that I am a capable and successful real estate broker and salesperson, whereas before I questioned my own abilities, and that my business and its model works very well. I've been thinking positively about all the referrals that we have currently outstanding and that we would start seeing checks. Today we received a payment for a closed referral that both myself and my business partner had thought was dead and worthless, that we had sent out exactly three months ago. Coincidence or power of positive thinking? That's subjective, but I feel it's the LOA at work!

I'm calling it a night because I'm hungry as hell, but I'll keep you posted as far as how this keeps up. My struggles. My victories. My additions to my vision board and anything else I find interesting.

And I'll give some updates on some other things I've touched on in past blogs. I promise to update this more!

One last thing. I appreciate those of you that read this. It makes me happy to know that people enjoy what I have to say and offer their own perspective and advice! So thank you, whoever you are! haha Leave a comment and let me know! Thanks

The Secret

Well, I finally watched "The Secret" and I found it very interesting. So interesting that I went out and bought a poster board to create a vision board of the things I want, and believe I can have in my life. I will post all the things that I add to it, as I add to it.

Haven't come up with a solid mantra yet, but I heard some great quotes from "The Secret" that I may use. The tennis match in my mind is still just as strong when I talk to myself, but I'm determined to get the negative out of it and focus on the positive things.

I made it through all of August without buying a drop of alcohol!!! I came close these last couple of days, but I had some help from some good friends not wanting to see me fail. Thanks!

I'm back down to having only one credit card with a balance too. Work is good. Life is good. My health is fantastic and I'm excited about life and what the universe has to offer! I've come a long way since I started this in June! I'm impressed with myself and very happy.

Sorry for not posting as much.

My mind talks too much!

Back in post #1 (I know! MONTHS ago) I talked about the little voice in your head. You know the one. It's probably saying, "Voice in my head? I don't have a voice in my head. That's for crazy people!" to you right now! Anyway, the point is that MINE DOESN'T EVER STFU!

Tonight was the first night of spending 15 minutes alone repeating the same phrases and beliefs to help me focus on my career and make it a priority in my thought, and it was nearly impossible to get the voice in my head to stop trying to talk over the projected voice! UGH!

I tried talking out loud. I tried talking LOUDLY in my head. I tried to close my eyes and clear everything away. I tried to strip away each thing that was there. I tried yelling at the voice in my head (I think it mocked me back like a sassy 5yr old girl). Basically, as I sat there trying to focus, my mind was going 100mph.

MY MIND:
You should be working instead of sitting in your room talking to a wall. What if someone saw you? This is pretty silly. Do you even believe what you're saying? Do you believe this will really work? You should be over at the computer getting your website noticed. You know what would work better, try this! Has it been 15 minutes yet? How do you know if it's 15 minutes if your phone is off and you didn't look at the clock? You want to look at the clock don't you? etc. etc.

I even tried closing my eyes, picturing my most peaceful place possible, which was a tee box on a beautiful green golf course, and as soon as I pictured a tee box, every possible hazard or obstacle automatically followed. There was a 100 yard canyon to carry, with water all along the left side, water along the right, and trees in the middle of the fairway. You think a psychologist would have an opinion on why that happened? Something like, "This symbolizes how you only see the obstacles in the path to your ultimate goal." That's how I saw it at least. Maybe I should have thought of sitting at the river drinking a beer!

This kind of upset me because that's exactly the opposite of how I'm trying to think. There are no obstacles, just opportunity. But hey, Rome wasn't built in a day! I kept on truckin' and continued repeating for another 5 straight minutes or so. I know this will be a process, but eventually I'll be able to remove the obstacles, see the fairway and stripe a 300 yarder down the middle!

In other news, I spoke with Scott today about our website and the changes I want to make, so progress with the business is in motion. I am going to post this and do a solid hour of work at least and continue thinking positive thoughts!

Oh and for the record, I have not spent a dime on alcohol for 21 straight days now. I have a lot more money, I have more energy and I'm on a somewhat normal sleep schedule now too. Amazing. OH, and getting buzzed only takes ONE PBR now! haha

Budget of $10/day is still being followed fairly strictly, too! LIFE IS GOOD!

Redundancy is annoying

Looking back at the last year, I can count at least 4 times when I've told myself, my business partner, my dad, my girfriend, my imaginary friend...that, "I'm ready to give it my all and I'm re-focused!"

I am SO SICK of hearing me say that, just to find myself two weeks later unmotivated and uninterested again!

Well folks, welcome to Groundhog Day!

I am re-motivated and ready to work for myself again!

I sit here and stress about money and things I want and can't have, yet I do nothing to work towards eliminating this stress, when there is a HUGE opportunity right in front of me. It's just plain dumb, and I know it is, yet I've just shrugged it off. Moron!

The aforementioned reason is not the only motivational factor though. Recently, I heard about this thing called, "The Secret!" Thanks to Wikipedia, I read a little bit about it and found it interesting. Anyone that knows me also knows that I would scoff at the notion that "positive thinking will generate positive results in the universe" or something akin to that, but I figure that if anything, at least I'll be positive and happy, so why not give it a shot, right?

I also looked at the Wikipedia page on meditation. Don't ask me why, because I don't know either. Hold on and hum elevator muzak while I Wiki "mantras."
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mantra: etymology means man- "To think" and tra- "tool", so a mantra is, in essence, an instrument of thought. NICE!

Much like I have done with many other aspects of my life described in this blog, I am going to translate me new found ability to "focus" on things into my career!

Each day, I will devote 15 minutes of silence to myself, reciting a mantra (to be made up tonight) that will be relegated to believing and focusing on my career.

I know some of you may be thinking, "Wait! Ins't a mantra and meditation a religious thing? Is he becoming buddhist?" The simple answer to that is, "NO!" Those of you that know me, also know my views on religion. That being said, there is no reason, to me, that this "secret"-ask-believe-receive thing coupled with mantra-meditation-motivation won't help me put my career as a priority in life. And if you look at "The secret" and mantras and meditation, they're pretty similar, at least from what I've read.

This is WAY out there for me, so bare with me if I didn't make it 100% clear to you tonight because I'm not quite sure of everything yet myself. Heh! This will be interesting. Basic principle to me is: If I make it a priority to constantly be in my head (much like I did with my budget), I won't want to escape it because it's making my life better.

Oh and as for not posting for the past like two weeks, fuhgeddaboutit! Just know I have stuck to my budget (fairly well actually) and I'm happy again. Let's see where this new positive mental attitude can get me!

Now it's time to think of a mantra! This excites me...mentally!

long overdue

Time for an update I'm sure! Im hoping back on the blog train, but this time I'm probably going to be spending more time on my business. I think I'm ready to make it grow now. Don't worry, I'll still be here updating my personal progress!

SUCK!

I feel terrible. Mentally. I have felt anxiety for about a month now, and I don't know why. I feel like I'm better off financially, mentally, physically, yet I still feel short of breath and my heart is racing all day. I don't like it. I feel depressed almost, as I am unmotivated and nervous all the time. I can't put my finger on it either. I'm thinking about finding a psychologist. I want someone to talk to about me, who can give me some OUTSIDE interpretation about MY actual feelings, without knowing history and whatnot. I almost feel like I just need to (as gay as this sounds) sit in my room and weep for an hour or something.

So, just so you all know, this is the reason I haven't posted in like a week. That and Thursday and Saturday were long days with the Alan Jackson concert and UFC fight. Oh and last night was a long night with a plumber that cost me $360.

So that's all for now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. OH! And I'm also not looking for some sort of "aww kyle im sorry...etc." I just put this post as part of my goal of expressing my feelings when I have them.

WDYD 8/5

Today I spent $8 for In-N-Out at lunch! It was amazing! I made brown sugar and cinnamon blueberry pancakes for dinner with eggs and apple juice I got yesterday for dinner. Kept me below my $10/day budget. I also got up this morning and ate my delicious cereal on the front porch and enjoyed 10 minutes of the morning before work. So today, I enjoyed life and the little things, and appreciated the things that I have! Life is good!

Time to go watch a movie or crash! G'night y'all!