Well, today was Father's Day AND my mom's senior citizen (haha) bday! I went out to spend the day with the old man! We played some golf, with the word "played" being used very loosely! Let's just say we probably would have both shot over 100 if we didn't have about 10 mulligans!
Today was my exception to my $10/day budget, as it was a holiday. During the day, with budget in mind, I thought about how many times my parents were probably in the financial situation I'm in now, in order to provide me with the life I've had. It got me thinking about how grateful I am, that someone else would put their own wants second to mine and how good it made me feel to give back to my dad today with something as simple as golf and dinner, and most of all, the time we got to spend together. My relationship with him hasn't ever been an emotional, heartfelt display of affection, but we both know that just spending the time together and sucking at golf is more than we simpletons could ever ask for. Sure, we wouldn't mind being able to afford to jet off to Scotland to suck at golf, but the balls are probably more expensive there and the current state of his putting game would not be compatible with those greens! ;) Love ya dad!
So today, the money I spent has only a memorable value! Happy Father's Day!
Oh and happy birthday mom! Hopefully you won big in vegas!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
6/19/09
I didn't spend any money yesterday! Got some work done with my computer only crashing TWICE! no deep thoughts for the day though.
I'll say one thing for today, my head just keeps thinking about all the things i want to do. Go kart with my dad for father's day, golf for fathers day, going out tonight, etc. It's tough to figure out which to do, considering all of them and then making the best decision. As opposed to the old ways of, "just do it all!"
I'll say one thing for today, my head just keeps thinking about all the things i want to do. Go kart with my dad for father's day, golf for fathers day, going out tonight, etc. It's tough to figure out which to do, considering all of them and then making the best decision. As opposed to the old ways of, "just do it all!"
Friday, June 19, 2009
$HEE$H
I spent $31 for 6/18 - $5 for subway lunch and $26 at Ralph's for dinner and two bottles of wine.
I'm spending too much money! I have averaged $22.79 PER DAY!!!! My biggest expenditures have been the Newcastle, and the two bottles of wine for a grand total of about $26. Granted these purchases last a little longer (and the dinner I made last night should be enough to last for another 2 days) so that could bring my "per diem" down to 17.73. Damn, that's a lot of money! Time to make a change in the way I handle this miscellaneous spending!
Goal #5: Average $10/day over the next 7 days! (golf excluded for this task)
This is going to be tough! Sounds simple, but this is a big lifestyle change. A much-needed change and a more realistic change, but tough nonetheless!
I'm spending too much money! I have averaged $22.79 PER DAY!!!! My biggest expenditures have been the Newcastle, and the two bottles of wine for a grand total of about $26. Granted these purchases last a little longer (and the dinner I made last night should be enough to last for another 2 days) so that could bring my "per diem" down to 17.73. Damn, that's a lot of money! Time to make a change in the way I handle this miscellaneous spending!
Goal #5: Average $10/day over the next 7 days! (golf excluded for this task)
This is going to be tough! Sounds simple, but this is a big lifestyle change. A much-needed change and a more realistic change, but tough nonetheless!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Drained
All this complex thinking has apparently sucked all energy out of me! I've had about 6 cups of coffee and 4 pieces of candy, and can hardly keep my eyes open! AND I FELL ASLEEP AT LIKE 11 LAST NIGHT!
Mentally, it's been a tough week. Trying to keep up with this, find a new roommate, worry about my business and getting the day-to-day tasks out of the way, has got me burnt! So we shall see what delusional thoughts I come up with on what's sure to be the longest drive home ever!
Not a post worth reading, but that's alllllllll that's up in between the ears!
Mentally, it's been a tough week. Trying to keep up with this, find a new roommate, worry about my business and getting the day-to-day tasks out of the way, has got me burnt! So we shall see what delusional thoughts I come up with on what's sure to be the longest drive home ever!
Not a post worth reading, but that's alllllllll that's up in between the ears!
Oops
Didn't post yesterday, so technically, Goal #1 was not accomplished. It's not that I didn't have time, because I did, but that I had planned on watching a movie and getting some work done and blogging post-movie. However, I passed out during the movie, then went to bed. Should have done it when it was in my head instead of putting it off! Typical Kyle. I recognize that I am the one responsible for it and it was my own fault.
So, goal #1 is BACK on the table as:
GOAL #4: 7 days of blogging starting today!
I spent $9.50 on food and a car wash for 6/17
So, goal #1 is BACK on the table as:
GOAL #4: 7 days of blogging starting today!
I spent $9.50 on food and a car wash for 6/17
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Lame Title: Selfish
I didn't have much going on upstairs today and was worried I'd have nothing to report other than the excessive money spent! But alas, the brain got going during dinner after dance classes.
The thing that's so odd about these thoughts is that I've thought them multiple times randomly over the last decade, but that's where they stayed. Before I get to them, I want to address another thought regarding this blog.
I started this knowing full well people would have their opinions and views on it. What I didn't expect was for me to realize these things when, apparently, so many people already "knew" I needed this and were just "waiting." Kind of tough to hear, kind of funny to hear who, but all instrumental in what I'm trying to accomplish in figuring out "who I am." So I welcome it, as tough as it is.
One of the toughest things to do through all of this, I think, is to try and see if there's some common theme or relation to all of these thoughts and actions. I feel like I can already see some, but it's still early, so I'll give it more time. ;)
CAUTION: May be tough to read
One thought that I've had more times than I can count is my funeral. This thought has evolved over the years. It started as, "If I died, who would come to the funeral and what would they be saying/feeling?" Of course you wonder if you would be able to hear the thoughts and see everything one last time during your own funeral. Over time, it's changed to having something medically wrong with me, curable, but life-threatening, so I would survive, but also get to see what people felt and see who showed up. Don't get me wrong, these are terrible things that nobody should ever wish on someone, let alone themselves, but they are all thoughts that have, at some point, crossed my mind. And don't say they haven't crossed yours, because we've all seen them in movies.
The only reasons I can come up with that I would even think this is to gain attention or say I've done something like overcome a disease. Which brings me to the other thought.
I have always seen myself as being ahead of the curve - as seen in post #1 - and figured I'd be more "successful" or accomplished by 25 than my peers would be at 30. I don't know if it's because I wanted to SAY I was or because I felt I deserved it. Regardless, that's what I thought. When I heard of people I knew from high school that have "accomplished" so many things already, that I felt didn't deserve it or weren't capable of it, I'd get upset internally and come back the next day more motivated to do something. Well, here I am at 25, still struggling with my own budget, credit card debt, and a mental complex that I can't determine if it's growing or diminishing by posting this blog haha. Maybe that's where my problem lies.
Maybe I've only decided to perform when someone else is doing better than me or someone is encroaching on what I "deserve." That's not how things should be working. I need to perform because I want to perform. I need to work for the things I want or realize I'm not getting them because I'm not working for it. I don't feel like I've ever been spoiled, even though my sister disagrees ;), so I don't know why I think this, but it's time for it to end.
Goal #3: If I want something, come up with a clear reason for why I deserve it. Wait 24 hours, and if I still feel like my justification is satisfactory, then consider it. If it's something more immediate, trust my gut.
Goal #3 was posted tonight because of last night. I posted that I only spent $20 yesterday, but I ended up going out to dinner and a movie, spending another $33, bringing the total to $53 for 6/14. I could have lived without going out to dinner and the movie, but didn't want to let others down, so I gave in, knowing I could have easily have said no and been just fine. A decision made wholly by myself! And the others wouldn't have cared either way!
Money spent for 6/15: eeesh. let's see...$34 ($5 for subway, $29 for dinner for two - same person that paid my parking tonight and my In-n-out yesterday)
I know there really isn't a lot of "flow" and transition between thoughts and paragraphs, but it's the beginning and I'm just getting them out. I'll sort it all out later and develop them further. SHIT! There I go again worrying more about what YOU think about my writing style than the point of the writing. So please, disregard that first sentence of this paragraph. I'll write however I want!
The end!
The thing that's so odd about these thoughts is that I've thought them multiple times randomly over the last decade, but that's where they stayed. Before I get to them, I want to address another thought regarding this blog.
I started this knowing full well people would have their opinions and views on it. What I didn't expect was for me to realize these things when, apparently, so many people already "knew" I needed this and were just "waiting." Kind of tough to hear, kind of funny to hear who, but all instrumental in what I'm trying to accomplish in figuring out "who I am." So I welcome it, as tough as it is.
One of the toughest things to do through all of this, I think, is to try and see if there's some common theme or relation to all of these thoughts and actions. I feel like I can already see some, but it's still early, so I'll give it more time. ;)
CAUTION: May be tough to read
One thought that I've had more times than I can count is my funeral. This thought has evolved over the years. It started as, "If I died, who would come to the funeral and what would they be saying/feeling?" Of course you wonder if you would be able to hear the thoughts and see everything one last time during your own funeral. Over time, it's changed to having something medically wrong with me, curable, but life-threatening, so I would survive, but also get to see what people felt and see who showed up. Don't get me wrong, these are terrible things that nobody should ever wish on someone, let alone themselves, but they are all thoughts that have, at some point, crossed my mind. And don't say they haven't crossed yours, because we've all seen them in movies.
The only reasons I can come up with that I would even think this is to gain attention or say I've done something like overcome a disease. Which brings me to the other thought.
I have always seen myself as being ahead of the curve - as seen in post #1 - and figured I'd be more "successful" or accomplished by 25 than my peers would be at 30. I don't know if it's because I wanted to SAY I was or because I felt I deserved it. Regardless, that's what I thought. When I heard of people I knew from high school that have "accomplished" so many things already, that I felt didn't deserve it or weren't capable of it, I'd get upset internally and come back the next day more motivated to do something. Well, here I am at 25, still struggling with my own budget, credit card debt, and a mental complex that I can't determine if it's growing or diminishing by posting this blog haha. Maybe that's where my problem lies.
Maybe I've only decided to perform when someone else is doing better than me or someone is encroaching on what I "deserve." That's not how things should be working. I need to perform because I want to perform. I need to work for the things I want or realize I'm not getting them because I'm not working for it. I don't feel like I've ever been spoiled, even though my sister disagrees ;), so I don't know why I think this, but it's time for it to end.
Goal #3: If I want something, come up with a clear reason for why I deserve it. Wait 24 hours, and if I still feel like my justification is satisfactory, then consider it. If it's something more immediate, trust my gut.
Goal #3 was posted tonight because of last night. I posted that I only spent $20 yesterday, but I ended up going out to dinner and a movie, spending another $33, bringing the total to $53 for 6/14. I could have lived without going out to dinner and the movie, but didn't want to let others down, so I gave in, knowing I could have easily have said no and been just fine. A decision made wholly by myself! And the others wouldn't have cared either way!
Money spent for 6/15: eeesh. let's see...$34 ($5 for subway, $29 for dinner for two - same person that paid my parking tonight and my In-n-out yesterday)
I know there really isn't a lot of "flow" and transition between thoughts and paragraphs, but it's the beginning and I'm just getting them out. I'll sort it all out later and develop them further. SHIT! There I go again worrying more about what YOU think about my writing style than the point of the writing. So please, disregard that first sentence of this paragraph. I'll write however I want!
The end!
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